SHE WITH THE BAJU KURUNG

Yes, another note about love.

Despite i'm going out with few 'candidates' or various effort from friends to introduce me to 'The candidates', i find it is very hard for me to venture to the world of companion and relationship, for next few months.

For now, the after-effect from previous relationship still wont heal effectively. I don't think finding another girl (for this time) is a good solution for it. Furthermore, it is hard for me to open my heart for anyone right now.

I imagine if, i settle with some girl today, i would not give her 'my 100%' percent concentration' for her. My mind still, at some point thinking about Natinski. I had to admit that.

Yes, maybe infront of my friends i would said that i'm ready for next chapter. Truth is, her shadow is still with me. I think it is unfair for any woman that i meet now.

I give a lift for one girl last night. She sitting beside me wearing baju kurung. I kept imagining that is Natinski who sit there. My memories of her with baju kurung, sitting quitely, staring at me and i just cruising along KL roads suddenly came back to me.

That tells me that i'm not ready for anyone.

Yet.